I am on the edge of a major life change: welcoming baby 2 into our home. Usually pregnant women are more than ready to be done at 37 weeks, but I am definitely not. My very human side can't stand the thought of the enormous changes that are coming. A family of four: no longer just Joann as the center of the universe. Oh how I've loved being Mommy to just her for (nearly) four years. I know this change will cause her to grow in ways she needs, but I almost want to apologize to her. Sweet, sweet girl. She will never be the same and neither will I. But at the same time, I can't wait for Aurora to get here! She is a special baby and I can feel her love and our love for her growing daily. I can't wait to hold her--sweet, tiny little girl. Motherhood is so precious. I'm grateful for the many, many ways it has changed me.
Preparing for natural childbirth has been huge for me. I have become more aware of my body and my emotions. I can calm down more easily (and I get lots of practice at that). My trust in myself has grown, as has my trust in the Lord. I've tuned into the power of this incredible creative process. Pregnancy is a very vulnerable time but it's also a time of great strength. As hard as it can be sometimes, I will miss being pregnant with these feelings. But I know each change brings its own growth and beauty. So I am on the edge, looking forward, looking around me, as this child and I grow together for a few more weeks.
